Jennifer, Thank you for being a goddess, a sister, a lover and a friend!
more bitter, my dear,
than when i realize
i’ve hurt you,
again.
It’s humbling and hard,
to face how human i am,
when loving you
makes me feel
immortal.
Wish that i
never wronged you,
except where my error
forces me to treasure
your preciousness.
Don’t just forgive me,
Dear, this time
help me become
a better
lover. Dear Jennifer,
Ever since we fell in love 3 years ago, I am touched by how deeply you have let me in. I am grateful to be living with you and sharing the highs and lows of life. I love getting all dressed up and seeing you laugh with your quick wit and bright smile. I also love when you stumble into the kitchen, grumpy in the morning, before you’ve had caffeine. You are so real and courageous and you have so many more unique qualities that enrich my life– including your willingness to go on TV and share our complex bisexual poly relationship with the world. I never told you this, but I don’t believe we would even have a show if it weren’t for your powerful sex magic! Thank you.
I love you so much that the last thing I want to do is hurt you. So it is with a heavy heart that I admit I have broken another boundary with you. I know how much conscious intention you’ve put into creating agreements with the family to keep everyone emotionally and physically safe, and through the years, you have been impeccable about respecting everyone’s boundaries. You deserve the same consideration.
I am sorry for preaching to you about integrity when I clearly could use more practice. I guess it’s no irony that I am constantly teaching boundaries– as it is what I need to work on most. I’m especially sorry if this is an area that I have been harsh or unforgiving towards you.
Please forgive me. And know that I am committed to cleaning it up. I want to hear how you feel about me, my words, my actions and whatever else we need to clear in order for us to move back into a space of authentic acceptance. Thank you for working through this with me. I have been so blessed that you have trusted me with as much as you do, especially in the area of sex.
Trust and safety are paramount for everyone to be sexually expressed. I am committed to doing whatever it takes so that you can relax under my body, and open with my touch and blossom into your pleasure. I know that rebuilding trust takes time– and I don’t mean to pressure you in any way–but I also know that our love is much bigger than the limitations of my learning curve…and eventually my actions will catch up with how much I respect, desire and adore you!
I am forever blessed to share our home, our husbands and our hearts.
All my Love, Kamala Devi
